Exclaimed Ranger as he read my books for the first time in the 2 years and 8 months he has known me. "You can lead a horse to water..." It's always baffled me; the way that men will stalk my social media for years, go crazy trying to understand me, and even make horrible plays in an effort to hook my attention without once reading my blog posts or books. It's actually quite insane in my humble opinion. Every last one of them would have saved themselves years of unrest and fru

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