Iman's Little Voyeur | NicoTV Returns

NicoTV. Who is NicoTV? I have my theories. I think I know who NicoTV is, but I don't actually know. There are tons of NicoTV accounts and I won't share the actual username on the account for fear of scaring whoever it is, but the "name" on it is NicoTV.

NicoTV spent a year and 7 months watching my tik tok account daily, sometimes multiple times a day. I know this from the profile views. I am near certain that I know who it is because once upon a time, a marked the account by DMing it. Well, really I marked $@719's Tik Tok account by DMing it even though he doesn't follow me. I did, so I could remember the username since it was like "user646082" or something like that. There wasn't actually a name on it, so I made note of it for that reason. The NicoTV account shows up under the DM I sent to $@719's account. He wouldn't know that though because it's a request and his profile is not set to receive them. For some reason though, I feel a lot of doubt that it's right. I guess I just don't want it to be right. I don't know. I don't want to think that I upset him badly enough for him to hate me that way. Who do I tell myself it might be other than him? Good question! I try to convince myself that it's people I don't mind being enemies with like my cousin who stalks me on social media and convinces herself that I'm posting about her, Helen the girl who made like 15 videos whining about me not paying for her insurance copay, or even Will (iykyk).

However, those aren't quite adding up to the evidence. You see, Curly flopped when they changed the account name because Curly and NicoTV used to watch my posts back to back and she would watch them on main. I would purposely post rage bait for the accounts and see if they would follow the same pattern. I would post, Curly would view first, then NicoTV. As though she was sending them to NicoTV. I eventually followed and DM's Curly saying

She blocked me, but I continued seeing NicoTV daily for over a year after that. I continued to rage bait NicoTV for months, but eventually the vindictiveness left me and I stopped doing it. NicoTV did not stop watching though.

Oddly enough, one day, I was working in Long Island as Barbie. I was changing in my car down the street from the house the party had taken place in.

My petticoat was caught on my knees when I felt a sudden sense of dread. I turned my head to see what caused it to see a familiar old man in a familiar burgundy car rolling down the street next to me then turning into a driveway. I've never been introduced to $@719's father, so he doesn't know me. However, if he were to contest his being $@719's father on Maury, they wouldn't even need to run the DNA before the crowd got rowdy. He is UNDENIABLY the father and he was undeniably getting out of his car and walking into the house directly across from me. Unable to believe the ways God chooses to humiliate me, I dove into my trunk with my petticoat still around my knees. Not to hide my face, but instead my impending panic attack. I begged to, in that moment, be a normal person. To not have a memory like mine, perception like mine, and self-awareness like mine. A normal person wouldn't have noticed the car. A normal person can't even tell you what car their mother drives. I can tell you what car anyone drives if I've seen it just once. Year, make, and model. I am a facial super recognizer like Bill Clinton. I never forget a face and I always know why I know it. Only a computer can see resemblances faster than I. Knowing all this and that I have an unstable disposition, God sends me his toughest battles anyway. I swear somehow $@719 found out I was out there dressed as Barbie, covered in face paint, glitter, and sweaty children's handprints because that was the last day NicoTV watched my TikTok... well it was the last day for over a year that the account watched my TikTok, until a couple weeks ago.

I decided to myself that NicoTV didn't belong to $@719 despite all the evidence pointing to it being him and I left it at that. I was frankly, tired of trying to solve the mystery of whoever was stalking me yet too afraid to reach out to me. Now though, I honestly feel that I must know who it is. Brittyn's going to hate me for saying this, but I kind of think it's not $@719 because I saw him back in the summer, texted him, and he didn't even reply. Why would he do that and go look for me? I'm only 5'3! No man could spend 3 years being so scardy about me. The view came during Thanksgiving time, which makes me sort of think it's my cousin that thinks I talk about her on the internet. You see, I refused to be subjected to her meanness, so I didn't attend our usual Thanksgiving and hosted my own, which caused a lot of rah rah. Perhaps it was her and this is the account she's been using to stalk me?

What do you think?